the perks of being a deadbeat

july 12 2009

1. When things go wrong, you're used to it.
2. When you get your hopes up, it's no big deal. and
3. Life sucks, and then you die. Yeah, I should be so lucky.

Yes, I quote characters in books. Don't get me started on Harry Potter. jk. :)

Today has been kind of gloomy, and I'm not just talking about the weather. I've been feeling off and on about life lately. I'm not close to being a deadbeat. I live with my boyfriend, I have friends, I take classes online, and hopefully I'll be getting re-hired at my old job this month. But still, for the past 8 months, I've been wanting some kind of out. Not out of my relationship with my boyfriend, not out of my studies to become a web designer, but an out of the expectations and drama, ya know? I think these feelings are only happening because of me and my boyfriends roommate. He's my boyfriends step-brother, but the guy cannot finance bills, he's an asshole, and he's more than likely bi-polar. It's hard to explain the hate I have for this guy. So I will stop.

Our lease ends next month, and my boyfriend and I are moving out. So that's always good news. Sometimes it just gets a little irritating having to wait.

about

Karen. 20 years old. October 24. Portland, Oregon. Likes: boyfriend, angels&airwaves, the fray, jacks mannequin, goo goo dolls, paramore, pittsburgh penguins, pittsburgh steelers, kristen stewart, jake/peyton (one tree hill), bella/jake (twilight), ron/hermione (harry potter), food. Dislikes: cheese, baseball, ignorant and stupid people, lucas/peyton, edward/bella, rob pattinson and his fans, etc.

the site

Feelingthis.org officially opened in july 2009. Formerly, I owned crash-into-me.org, but let it expire. The current layout features Jacob Black and Bella Swan from the Twilight series. They are played by Kristen Stewart (bella) and Taylor Lautner (jacob).

links

Currently none. Wanna exchange links? email me. Thanks!